Tag Archives: grief

premature loss

Posted on April 15, 2016 by undermounted

All mothers share with certain knowledge, that the unimaginable pain of holding a premature, newly born baby, as its fragile, perfect body, loses its fight to stay alive. That the grief of that loss, the loneliness that it wrenches from … Continue reading →

Posted in a womans body, parenting | Tagged anger with God, grief, losing a baby, losing faith, parenting, premature, stillborn | 2 Comments

pieces of peace

Posted on June 22, 2015 by undermounted

i wrote a long post about Fathers day that turned into a pity party blame game and that’s not what i wanted to say. my father is dead. the journey between his cancer diagnosis and his death, left me with … Continue reading →

Posted in Family, Holidays, Relationships | Tagged dad, death, death of a loved one, family, fathers day, grief, relationships | 9 Comments

dense fog

Posted on May 13, 2015 by undermounted

I can feel the disassociation rolling over me like the cool fog coming ashore from the Atlantic. Things become quieter in my head. Emotions dampen and are pulled inwards, isolating me as I internalize everything. As my vision reduces, I … Continue reading →

Posted in depression | Tagged depression, disassociation, fog, grief, loss, mental illness, sadness | 7 Comments

Grief despair and pain

Posted on December 11, 2013 by undermounted

I think that when you lose someone whom you love, you hurt so badly for so long, that you become as much numb to the pain of loss as you are deeply aware of it. It’s very similar to … Continue reading →

Posted in Relationships | Tagged death, desolation, despair, dying, grief, hurting, losing faith, losing someone you love, misery, pain | 6 Comments

when memories end

Posted on March 31, 2013 by undermounted

I miss seeing my parents’ relationship. Seeing them work in seamless negotiation due to the 35 years they spent married. I miss the looks they gave each other; the ones where an entire conversation took place with a raised eye … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged cancer, caring, child, children, concern, death, family, grief, hope, husband, inspiration, love, memories, moving on, parents, relationships, sadness, wife | 8 Comments

Newtown, Connecticut Shooting

Posted on December 14, 2012 by undermounted

merciful God.. my heart is absolutely breaking..so many children…so many educators and parents..the suffering is unimaginable..so many families impacted..i am so very sorry that this happened..that a young man was so lost and without help, that he could harm and … Continue reading →