Tag Archives: relationships

his ache remains

Posted on March 7, 2019 by undermounted

the only reason i say i struggle with words to use, is because i do not want to say what i feel out loud and reveal it to you. what purpose would it serve? i don’t want to know how … Continue reading →

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new man in town

Posted on February 18, 2017 by undermounted

i’ve met someone. he arouses me. i’ve known him for a long time but have just recently met him. and for the past 2 months he has been engaging me, building something he wants and which he believes will be … Continue reading →

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back, the fuck, down

Posted on January 23, 2017 by undermounted

i was pissed off today by someone i haven’t spoke to or had any contact with in several years. i have purposefully stayed away from something which is important to me, because she is there. and she is lying. she … Continue reading →

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Marital improvements

Posted on August 15, 2016 by undermounted

My husband is trying. And by trying I mean full court press of shit he should have done over the last 20 years, kind of trying. As in little surprises and doing some thoughtful things because he’s heard me say … Continue reading →

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blank

Posted on March 7, 2016 by undermounted

i’ve been ‘dead’ again. sorrowful and stale. unable to progress. stalled. not caring. comfortably numb. i’ve retreated, even from myself. i don’t want to be involved with anyone. not a lover, not a spouse, not a friend, not myself. i … Continue reading →

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how to love

Posted on March 2, 2016 by undermounted

the thing is, no one said when you love someone, it must be returned. it certainly have to be returned in equal measure. there is this magical idea of what should happen with emotions and when it fails to occur, … Continue reading →

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spousal support

Posted on February 7, 2016 by undermounted

it’s funny how your brain filters events and emotions in your life. unable to shut down, awake all night, then waking up after an hour from an insane nightmare of sudden floods and drowning puppies with someone picking them up … Continue reading →

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people annoy me

Posted on August 25, 2015 by undermounted

i am so tired of stupid people. are there more of them around or is my tolerance at an all time low? i’m irritated. persnickity. moody. annoyed. i am probably coming across as short tempered. which i am. because it … Continue reading →

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old lover new role

Posted on August 22, 2015 by undermounted

i often wonder why you still want to maintain a relationship with me after getting exactly what you were looking for by being with someone else. i know we ended as the result of a misunderstanding. you’ve told me multiple … Continue reading →

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changing choices

Posted on August 2, 2015 by undermounted

sometimes i think we become so deaf to listening to the little whispers we hear from our soul, that when it starts to shout at you, our first reaction is distress and disappointment instead of acceptance and gratitude. we forget … Continue reading →

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