Today was a day off and I seemed to be consumed with negative thoughts through the day.
Today was such a weird day. Barely uttered any words. Slept and ate. A lot of time wasted on social media platforms like Reddit and Instagram.
Room is a mess but didn’t clean it up. Watched a movie that was slightly disturbing (Luckiest Girl Alive on Netflix). Pondered and worried about my increasing weight, saw the pictures over the last one year and how I am changing.
Recalled an incident from the past where a lady was rude in particular.
Should have gone to sleep but decided to take a bath at 2 am while reading Slyvia Plath’s Bell Jar. For those of you who don’t know, the protagonist is undergoing mental health issues and I ended up reading the part where she is contemplating cutting off her wrists in a warm bath. Major eye roll moment. Got a little freaked out. Saw a few pictures of my partner who is away at the moment to comfort myself. Decided not to read any further.
Now ending this bummer of a day with a blog post.
Adios!
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