Musings #019

4 am

I am overwhelmed by a range of emotions that I don’t have a handle on. Am I happy? Am I sad? I am definitely restless. And clueless.

It’s so difficult to keep yourself busy when your mind isn’t at peace. And god, the social media does not help. Have stopped using IG and switched to Reddit. And it’s slightly better? Who knows.

Been reading books, watching movies, TV shows, going to the gym. I have found a new obsession with Apps. Using an app for everything.

Goodreads for books

Letterboxd for movies

Serializd for TV shows

Money Mgr. for expenses

MyFitnessPal for calorie count

NikeRun Club for Gym

Happy Scale for weight

Spotify for music

Too much time to kill? Probably yeah. Been reading Bridget Jones’s diary and feel like I am turning into her.

Can’t believe my last blog post was one year ago.

Nerves. Got to rest the nerves.

On a Light Hearted Note

I have a zillion things at hand to do,

chores to finish, songs to sing,

languages to learn and children to woo,

each day is passing at pace of two,

my rhyme is sucking great balls too,

quiet a short time left for cock-a-doodle-doo,

why can’t I stop thinking about you! ❤

Pitfalls and Sunshines

I am hurt, not emotionally but literally, with a bruised knee from dashing my bike on to a road divider. Well stupid things happen! I have fallen a couple of times now, appears as if I am making money out of it! Makes me shrink my head inside my hands.

The day has been full of mishappenings hovering around.

Woke up to a very creepy crawling tiny creature in my room. It/he/she made my sleep go away in a split second. After the failed attempt of catching it in a jar, I just left it on its own. New paid guest in my room still resting somewhere as I type this.

Skipped on my breakfast. Drove in the rain. Had the front tire of my bike losing pressure in middle of the rain. And then this fall. Called up my mom, like a six-year-old runs to their momma after getting injured. Reenacted the whole scene to her. I am better now.

One good thing happened: Remember I mentioned about teaching kids? Well, I got a mail today that I got through this recruitment drive I had attended and Voila!! I am going to teach kids on weekends now, real soon. I am pretty excited about it!!! And a tad bit nervous. But happy. :).

P.S.: Eid mubarak everyone!

Tending towards Negative…Be Positive!

This weekend has been a relaxing one. A little too relaxing I would say. When you are not doing anything, your mind runs in myriad directions. It dwells into the past, it tries to foresee the future. Either way, you sit back and contemplate and draw new conclusions for yourself. I have had very less interaction with the outside world since last three days and ample of time to ponder. Probably one of the reasons why I am writing down right now. I slept, went out for a stroll, I ate, I shopped, I read the news, and now I am writing. I could talk to my friends but I would rather not for today. Some are away. I guess the ones I wanna talk to are away. Anyway. There I was wondering, given to my weekend free time. Procrastination could be coined as a disease. It’s doing me lot of harm. I have activities lined up in my head and no urge to carry them forward. No push. No zeal. If only, something inside me could twist and curl and turn me all spunky! More disciplined. About my guitar lessons, my routine, about my unfinished novels, about numerous other stuff. I want to outgrow these stupid little weekend thoughts. Work it girl! There is no other go. They won’t have a cure as they haven’t termed it a disease yet. May be I’ll come up with a more activity-filled article next weekend if things go right. If my head works right I mean!