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Torn

08 May

This is a bonus post- a poem I put together for something else but felt like sharing here. It deviates a bit from the usual lighthearted tone, but I feel it is in keeping with the overall theme of the search for Truth.

Torn

In the dimly lit hours I came to you
Yearning for your voice, your touch
But dragging my feet all the same
Fearing what I would find

You clasped my hand and said
“Everything will be ok”
I believed you desperately
And despaired

The sounds you made keep me up nights
Yet I sleep to escape my pangs of pain
Still, the quiet was worse- even then
My soul is lost, now, in your silence

I journeyed through grief as a warrior
Wisdom my shield, new perspective my sword
Never knowing the shadow I fought
Was the little child in me, sobbing to be back in your arms

Exhausted I lay, on the floor of the valley of the shadow
Unbidden thoughts took me into the heart of God
Unchained desires left me washed up, desiccated
On shores devoid of the divine

Among the shattered pieces I found my reflection
Reflected to myself, I saw myself anew
Compassionate, confused soul, waiting, trembling
As a breathless twilight awaits the dawn

In the dimly lit hours, you came to me
Your silent presence whispered comfort to my soul
I sat and lost myself in your fleeting embrace
Your spirit passed into me, and I was whole

 
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Posted by on May 8, 2013 in Future, Grief, Life, Perspective, Relationship, Tribulations

 

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Just the highlights!

21 Feb

Highlighter

Sometimes, when your thoughts get way too complicated, you yearn for only the important stuff. And one simple way to identify and remember what’s important is with a

HIGHLIGHTER

You tech-savvy computer users out there might be more familiar with the highlighting button than our good old-fashioned marker friends, but the idea is the same. You’re confronted with a huge (or maybe just tedious) body of text. There’s a lot of info there; you start to feel overwhelmed and your palms start to sweat. So you reach for that little [insert favorite color—mine’s orange] highlighter and suddenly you feel empowered. If the pen is mightier than the sword, then the highlighter is mightier than the pen. Your eyes start scanning, and you lash out with your strokes of color and rapidly make sense of your document.

Highlighters are great because they have a clear function: to simplify. Whether you are identifying only important things, or things to change, or things that don’t make sense, you are narrowing a LOT of information down to a more manageable amount. And unlike summarizing, where you cut out all but the most important information, all the other information is still there! You can access it immediately, but your eye and the eyes of future readers are drawn to the colorful highlights.

This isn’t meant to send you rushing excitedly to the nearest office superstore in search of a stock of highlighters (although you are more than welcome to go once you’re done reading). Highlighters, like many seemingly mundane items in our lives, have a lesson to teach us.

How often do your thoughts feel like a 120-page document filled with 8-pt text and no pictures? Probably more often than you’d like, between work, family, friends, goals, fun, bills…. there’s a lot going on! People tell you to organize your thoughts: use lists, charts, calendars, reminders, etc. YES, By all means do that! It’s vitally important to your busy life if you want to keep everything from crashing down around your ears.

But sometimes you’ve got a decision to make, and WAAAY too much information with which to make it. You can organize and summarize everything you know: long lists of pros and cons, dos and don’ts, he said, she said, etc. But those lists can severely limit the information you’re working with, and not necessarily in a good way. A lot of times what you really need is to highlight aspects of the information in the context of everything else. How? Conversation.

THE TAKE-AWAY

It occurred to me recently why talking something out with someone is so powerful in making decisions and honing goals.  When you have something weighing on your mind, say a big career move or a relationship issue, there are thousands of thoughts flitting around. Things people said, previous conversations, something you read, past experience, emotional responses: all of these are fighting for your attention. It would probably take you a year to write it all out and organize it in a way that encompasses everything. But why would you? You already have everything in one place: your mind. And your mind is working feverishly trying to organize it for you. At that point, you can think and think and think and wait until your mind comes to a conclusion. But ask yourself, do you really need ALL the available information at once, equally, to make a decision? Chances are, you can get away with just highlighting the important points, but allowing your mind to take them in the context of everything around them.

When we talk to someone, especially when we explain a dilemma, we can really only give them a very finite amount of information. Even if you’re the type of person who spills everything and tends to drone, there are only so many hours in the day. So if you are contemplating a major decision and you want someone’s advice, you aren’t going to burden them with every single point about that decision. You can only give them the most important information, and you have to give the information in a way that they can understand and respond to. And you really only have a split second to do this. After all, you can come to a conversation with a list of things you want to cover, but conversations are impossible to completely plan out. Based on the other person’s response, you have to decide what to dole out next.

If done mindfully, this process of explaining a complex situation to another person serves the same purpose as highlighting a document. It accentuates and clarifies the key information you want to convey. And in the course of the conversation, you can draw from the surrounding “documenting” thoughts to back it up or provide more information. This is useful to whoever you’re talking to, but it’s invaluable to you. Why? Because when you go back and review that conversation in your mind, you have certain thoughts that you know you emphasized. And you also have notes or additional “highlights” that the other person may have provided.

Conversing mindfully and decisively about a complex problem or decision can help highlight what is most important to you while allowing you to solicit insight about key thoughts or points.

With enough of these conversations, you have yourself a mental “document” which you can scan through quickly and decisively to gain the most relevant information. You can cut the worrying and stop mulling over things in circles because everything you need to know stands out. With that kind of clarity, it will be much easier to make a decision.

WHAT’S IT TO YOU?

Think of a major issue or pending decision in your life. Do you feel like you’re spinning your wheels and going over the same points with yourself again and again? Try talking it out and see what comes to mind when you try to explain the problem to someone else. If you feel like you’ve tried this and it hasn’t worked, try talking to someone else (maybe someone farther removed from the issue, an objective third party). Or, try talking to the same people again but be mindful of the points you are bringing up, the lines of conversation that seem to come up most, or the aspects that you are most passionate or clear about. You might find that the answer has been written there all along, it just needed to stand out a little more. Happy highlighting!

 
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Posted by on February 21, 2012 in Motivation, Patience, Perspective, Positivity, Random Objects, Relationship, Tribulations

 

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All you need is…

14 Feb

Love

I read something last week that struck me as fundamentally True. It said that the only truly significant thing you can do in life is to love. I realize that “only” is a strong word, but think about this for a moment. What is more significant in life than love? Love of others, love of self, love of whatever God or higher being you believe in: I would bet that just about everything you do in life stems from these things. Anything that doesn’t is probably something you want to change, whether or not you recognize why. People spend a lot of time looking for meaning, purpose, and Truth. Not only do they not always find it, but all too often they come away feeling worse than they did when they started! To find the Truth, and for it to mean anything, you have to look in the right place. So I want to spend some time exploring that place, which happens to be the most important thing in your life:

LOVE

I get that it’s actually Valentine’s Day as I post this, and I doubt I’ll convince you that it’s a coincidence. Unfortunately, when most people think of love, they think of Valentine’s Day. Or sex. Or at the very least, a romantic relationship of some kind. That’s great, and if done correctly, these are very powerful aspects and expressions of love.

But that’s not the Love I’m talking about. Love is greater than all these things, and it can be very difficult to define. Most everyone, religious or not, is familiar with St. Paul’s well-known description of love in 1 Corinthians 4-8. This is essentially what I’m talking about, but it’s still very vague and poetic. What does it actually mean that love is patient, always trusts, or never fails?

Love, at its core, is about connection. Religions from every time and place have venerated this universal connection, whether through a God or gods, an all-pervading life force, or a powerful spiritual state. But believe it or not, atheists often talk about the same thing when asked about the meaning in life. They just describe it differently, usually with more personal and less specific language. Even science, through studies of quantum phenomena and consciousness, is beginning to explore and validate this connection, both on a global scale and between individuals. You may be surprised or angry, and you may disagree, but whatever you believe about it, Love matters to you.

Once you see love as a connection, it’s easier to see it that it comes in many forms that aren’t “romantic.” The love between parent and child is one of the most potent, as is the love that exists between siblings (once they get over fighting with each other). Love exists between friends who open up and share their experiences, from inside jokes and mutual fun to struggles with grief and stress. Listening to your friend vent, supporting them at a relative’s funeral, and throwing them a surprise party are all expressions of love. And though it may be hard to realize, allowing a friend to do these things for you, to accept and be grateful for their love, is equally important.

Is love only between friends and family then? That’s a resounding no; the key we are talking about here is connection, which can apply to anyone. You might think of random acts of kindness. Smiling at a stranger who looks upset, holding a door, giving a genuine compliment, even rushing to someone’s rescue are ways to cultivate a connection to the “outside world” beyond your circle of friends and family. This is still “direct” love between you and another person.

That’s it? you’re thinking. Tell me something I don’t know. This is way obvious.

Remember how I said love is the most important thing in your life? I meant it, and not in a weird, vague sense. Whether it’s challenging or easy for you, direct love is amazing, and the more naturally it comes the closer you are to really getting life. But Love goes even further, into parts of your life that you might not associate with it.

Have you ever sat down to a task that you absolutely hate? If you’re lucky, these tasks are few and far between. But you might feel this way about something that takes up a lot of your time, like work or school. Do you sit down and wonder why the heck you’re doing it? I bet I know why, and I bet it can be traced back to love.

You might think this statement is a stretch. Laundry? A crappy job with a low salary and no hope of advancement? Paying bills? And you’re telling me this is Love?

If you live with someone, either your parents or your significant other or your spouse or your kids, you might see what I’m getting at. You are working that job to support your dependents, or someone is doing the same for you and you’re grateful. You do laundry and dust to keep the environment clean, which improves your health and promotes a positive mindset. You pay the bills to provide for people. You go to school to improve your ability to do these things.

If you live alone, these reasons apply a little differently and bring another love, the love of self, into play. This gets a bad rap because most people replace self-love with selfish. But these are two different things. Brushing your teeth, getting a physical, making money to support yourself, eating well and exercising: do these scream “selfish” to you? Of course not, and yet you do these things out of a love of self. Why? Because taking care of your body, your mind, and your emotional state is critical to being able to relate to the world and to other people. How are you going to love anyone enough to share a smile or give your time if you’ve let yourself go and are miserable and unhealthy?

I could go on and on, but if you think about your life, anything you choose to do that you would rather not do can be traced back to love. What about things you DO want to do? Well, that’s a little tricky. Things like sex, splurging on food and luxuries, or venting your complaints to a friend are healthy and can contribute to a full, beautiful life. Done well and in moderation, they are important expressions of love. But you and I both know they can also tear a life apart if done in excess, and they underscore the fact that Love is deeper than just temporary gratification. Many things point to Love, but access to Love itself is more of a state of being, a mindset.

THE TAKE-AWAY

You might have come to this post expecting the keys to life, and might be feeling like I’ve given you a whole lot of nothing. The thing about love, which has been explained by generations of theologians, scientists, philosophers, and everyday people, is that it is both immensely complex and intensely personal. What I want you to come away with is just how important Love is to EVERY aspect of your life, from your daily commute to a romantic night out. To truly understand Love, take a step back and look at why you do what you do, every decision that you make. See your life objectively, and try to recognize how you feel about its various aspects.  Each of us has qualities about ourselves that we like.  Maybe you’re a good listener, a mentor, or generous with your time.  Chances are, these aspects of yourself, things that lead to satisfaction and fulfillment, are where Love is most present in your life.  Other qualities, like a self-destructive habit or quick temper, might indicate somewhere where your self-love is lacking, which adversely affects your ability to Love others.  Either way, I want you to leave this post and look at your life with this in mind:

Love is at the heart of everything you do. Your ability to recognize it, cultivate it, and truly live it is directly related to your openness, your perspective, and your attitude.

Keeping yourself oriented toward the positive, the meaningful, and the fulfilling aspects of your life is a struggle that we all share daily. The more you do this, the more you come to see drudgery as a time for reflection, setbacks as opportunities to reassess, tragedy as an unexpected instigator of love, and anger as a matter of perspective.

Victory in this internal struggle is never permanent. There is no magic cure-all and this struggle will take every fiber of your will and being to succeed. But once you’ve experienced this true Love, even for an hour or a day, you know it is the answer you’ve been looking for. To lose sight of it is the ultimate disappointment. And to regain it, though it may take years, is the sweetest joy and freedom. You will experience both. But what will determine the quality of your life is how relentlessly you seek to experience Love, and how dedicated you are to resisting the easy path of frustration, self-doubt, complaint, lack of discipline, and despair.

The ultimate expression of self-love is to seek out Love in every aspect of your life. The ultimate expression of love of others is to give of yourself, to recognize and live out your connection to the people around you. Only from an understanding of Love do you gain Purpose. And there is no greater contentment than to know that the Purpose for your life is Love.

What’s it to you?

For the last few months I’ve been discontent. I’ve been constantly looking at aspects of my life I want to change. I’ve been frustrated, anxious, quick to anger and complain, and frankly I became sick of it. That’s really what it took: choosing to be tired of the rut my life was in and it led me to take a step back and try to be more positive. And for the last week, that same life has left me optimistic, fulfilled, and positive. I’ve found myself more responsive to the emotional needs of others, and I’ve begun to recognize the relative unimportance of the stressors that I’d been allowing to define my attitude. And all it took was a decision.

No matter how your life is going, I urge you to do this. Take a look at your attitude toward your home life, your job, your relationships. Is there anything you don’t like about your relationship to these things rather than the things themselves? If the answer is yes, dare to change yourself, or more specifically, your perspective. It will give you the freedom to love others and take yourself less seriously, and if there are external things you want to change, you’ll be in a much better place to conquer these challenges.

No one does this Love stuff perfectly. In fact, I feel somewhat hypocritical for writing this because of my own constant shortcomings. But that is the heart of my message, and my greatest hope for this post and this blog. By sharing both my struggles and insights, which are all too often brought on by tragedy and hardship, I can give you perspective that can help in your life. By reading this and reflecting, by sharing, by commenting, you can hone these ideas and spread them. We are all in this together. Let’s make it mean something.

 
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Posted by on February 14, 2012 in Connection, Future, Life, Motivation, Patience, Perspective, Positivity, Purpose, Relationship, Tribulations

 

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wittytruth Redefined…

14 Feb

I started this blog with a grand (though perhaps vague) vision.  My life and experiences so far have given me a unique perspective on the “big topics” at a relatively young age.  I’ve experienced great joy and contentment, worked hard to achieve personal and academic success, and enjoyed the love and support of a wide circle of friends and family.  I have seen the Northern Lights and gotten stuck in a desert, ziplined through a rainforest and walked the Path of the Gods.  But I have also experienced tragic loss, disappointment, and betrayal while making plenty of my own mistakes.  Guilt, fear, and anxiety are no strangers to me.  But neither are peace, hope, and love.

So I decided to blog about the things I see, to share my small wisdom in a way that isn’t preachy, isn’t judgmental, and isn’t all about me.  Life has shown me two main things:

1)      Peace and harmony are within our grasp, and with them we can attain our highest callings and bring forth our greatest dreams in service to humanity.

2)      It is EXTREMELY difficult to keep (1) in mind and act on it on a day-to-day basis.  And let’s face it, continuously failing to do this just plain sucks.

That’s what I want to try to achieve: a bridge between the higher Truth of life that is within our reach, and the struggle we face in meshing this Truth with our daily routines. It’s admittedly a tall order, for a blog or for life. But the thing is, the Truth and the struggle are both critical parts of the journey.

At this writing, it has been a long time since my last post.  Call it lack of inspiration, stress, or apathy over a life that doesn’t seem to be as full as it once was.  Whatever it was, I felt it would be hypocritical to proclaim how to live life when I was having trouble getting up in the morning.  But when I reflected on my blog’s mission statement, it occurred to me that waiting to feel better wasn’t going to inspire me. Waiting till I had everything in my life in perfect order would mean waiting forever. And waiting until this blog “took off” to start writing about the important things in life didn’t make sense either.

So I decided to begin a new phase of wittytruth, and start with the blog post I’d been saving for the day I had your attention: Love.  I’ll continue to keep things as witty as possible, but I want these posts to be about Truth above all.  I want you to read each topic and compare it to your own life, and then I want you to comment and start a conversation.  Why? Because the meaning in life is tied up in the connection we share, the common ground of being human.  My goal, our goal, is to untie that knot and share it with the world in a way that’s funny, grounded, and just plain makes sense.  The Truth is in you.  Make it yours.

 

 
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Posted by on February 14, 2012 in Future, Life, Patience, Purpose, Tribulations

 

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When in doubt…

13 Dec

Doubt

Decisions, decisions. They’re everywhere. They can loom like a dark cloud on the horizon for days, or strike like lightning out of a clear blue sky. Decisions test your memory of the past and how clearly you’ve defined your direction for the future. They can be simple or tough, trivial (Where should I eat dinner? Heads or tails?) or critical (The building is burning down, do I go left or right? Where should I go to college?). Decisions shape your path and determine your destination. And while sometimes you can field them like a ping-pong master, there are other times when you flee from them as you would a pack of velociraptors. But it isn’t the decision you’re fleeing, it’s the raptors. They are trying to stop you from making the right decision; they want to eat you instead. Why? Because the raptors represent

DOUBT

Doubt has terrible connotations, most of which you know and don’t need to be repeated here. At best, doubt is viewed as a weakness. To the judgmental observer, doubting yourself or your situation means you are indecisive, uninformed, underprepared, and your future is likely to suffer as a consequence. To you, in your own mind, doubt is all of these things magnified many times over. It invites its friends guilt, anxiety, and paranoia to come on over and play a heavy metal depressionfest in your soul. You can’t hear yourself think, and at this point you’d really rather not even try—maybe the whole thing will just go away.

There are two general situations in your life in which doubt really has the power to cut your figurative knees out from under you. These are:

1)      DECISION TIME: There is a clear choice to be made. You have options, you have information coming out of your ears, and more than likely the stakes are high. It’s make or break time, but no matter how much info you gather or how many people you talk to, you seem even farther from making a decision than when you started. The moment of truth is TOMORROW? Are you kidding me? How are you going to choose?!

2)      IT’S NOT WORKING: Let’s not get into the sordid details of why it’s not working, or what awful decisions you might have made in the past or what rotten luck you have. The fact is, where you’re at now isn’t right, and the worst thing is you really don’t know why. You try to be reasonable, but doubt drags at you like a lead ball and makes you question why you even bothered trying in the first place. You’ve got to decide what to do now, but if the past is any indication, you’re doomed either way. So, what do you do now?

Doubtless, there are other times when doubt is a real kicker. But in numbers 1 and 2, we often find doubt to be utterly paralyzing and almost impossible to shake. What are you supposed to do with that?

THE TAKE-AWAY

So now that I’ve told you how awful yet inevitable doubt is in your life, I have a surprise twist for you:

Not only is doubt NOT as terrible as people want you to think, it is both BENEFICIAL and NECESSARY to a full experience of life.

Here’s the deal. Everything I scared the crap out of you with above (which you can all relate to, let’s be honest) isn’t really about doubt or decisions at all. It’s caught up in other things like fear, guilt, and anxiety, which are more complicated and (maybe, if you’re lucky) will be explored later. You react to doubt because you see it as a threat, and you see it as such because having to make important decisions undermines your sense of security. But there is a way of looking at doubt that is, if not less scary, at least less emotionally and negatively charged.

Doubt, skepticism, worry, anxiety: they all spin off of having to make a choice. But the same way you break out the legal pad and weigh the pros and cons of what TV to buy for your living room, your mind is simply weighing the pros and cons of any situation in life where you have to make a choice. It’s just that instead of size, screen type, 3D, brand, and picture quality, you’re throwing in things like past experience, emotional baggage, anxiety about the stakes of the future, worry over how your choice is perceived, and embarrassment over doubting yourself in the first place. These are the technical specs of your life that you’re weighing, but the problem is you are a biased judge, and every little detail produces an emotional response.

I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again: STOP! Listen to what you’re actually doing, because I have no doubt you aren’t actually paying attention. You’re taking the elements of an isolated decision, even if it’s a very important and complicated one, and you’re bringing in all of the emotional issues that come with every single aspect of what affects and is affected by said decision. The fact is, those very tough worrisome decisions are just like any other: you have options, you have information, and you have the good sense to pick the best alternative. That’s all you need!

Now there are two easy steps: 1) Take what you’ve got in the time you’ve got and make your best choice, and 2) DON’T WORRY, either during or after the decision making process, about whether you’re right. You’re going to do your best, and then one of three things will happen: 1) You will choose wrongly, it will become apparent why, and you’ll learn from it and move on, 2) Circumstances beyond your control will make your choice better or worse than you expected and there’s nothing you can or could ever do about it, or 3) You’ll be happy with your choice and never even think about it again.

And the fun thing is, do you know what’s going to ensure that you’re going to make your best choice? DOUBT! Doubt focuses you, makes you scrutinize every detail until you’re as comfortable as you’re going to be with the choice you make. How would you have ANY hope of making the right choice if you didn’t have doubt to make you weigh your options? Don’t worry about doubt, WIELD it! It is your internal scale, giving you the chance to make an informed decision and not simply choose blindly. Doubt is your greatest asset in a decision, without a doubt, because it tells you there’s a choice to be made and gives you the best chance to make the right one.

Does that sound scary? Of course not. Why? Because you know you’re going to do your best given the circumstances, and no matter what happens you have the chance to come out on top. Always the way you expect, want, or plan for? Absolutely not. But do you really think that if you keep deciding to make decisions, building up experience from past successes and failures, you are still going to end up a failure?

I tend to doubt it.

WHAT’S IT TO YOU?

Think of a decision you made or are trying to make, particularly a very stressful one. What causes you to doubt your decision? More importantly, why is this so stressful?

Try listing the pros and cons and see what about the ELEMENTS of the decision are creating the anxiety. Then you can put them in their place with the proper perspective. It’s your life and you KNOW this stuff. Use your experience and make the best choice. Chances are, the worst that can happen is that you learn a lesson that will help you choose better in the future!

 
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Posted by on December 13, 2011 in Future, Perspective, Positivity, Tribulations, Worry

 

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So nervous…

15 Nov

In life, there are some things you can control, and these things are wonderful. Things like when you get up in the morning, what you wear to work, what you have for lunch, or who you talk to during the day. They allow you to exert your will on the world, and who doesn’t like to feel in control? But in practice, these are harder to control than they appear to be. This is due in part to pesky things like emotions and habits. But it is more likely a result of that vast menagerie of factors that you CAN’T control: things like ethnicity, disasters, weather, computer bugs, illnesses, sports teams, traffic, and, of course, other people. These can wreak havoc on your ability to direct your life, and, without the proper perspective, can lead to a serious affliction known as

WORRY

If you’re reading this, you’ve been alive long enough to have noticed that things often don’t go your way. They can be circumstances that you’re born with and are therefore stuck with, or events that happen over the course of your life that either piss you off or completely alter your perspective and direction. These things are everywhere, and you’re worried sick about them. Why?

”I’ll tell you why, they’re screwing up my life! Every time I make a plan or try to get ahead something shoots me down! There are things about me that could ruin all of my goals!”

Yes, I probably can’t argue with any of that (not to where I’d convince you, anyway). Death, recessions, bad genes, car crashes, nutty colleagues… all of these suck, clearly. But why are you worried about them? If they happened in the past, you’ve probably moved on to some degree. You’ve fought those battles and hopefully made peace with the outcomes, because if there’s one thing you DEFINITELY can’t change, it’s the past (unless you have a time-turner, in which case, Godspeed). But worry isn’t about the past, it’s about the future.

In fact, this whole post is really about the future. Think about the future, please. In your mind’s eye you might see yourself taking an upcoming trip, getting married, having kids, growing old, winning the lottery, getting a promotion. I have some bad news: none of those things is going to happen. Yes, I said it. And do you know why? Because your mind’s eye is extremely prone to illusions, and all of the things you see happening are laden with little details that your mind is filling in. Those things might happen. In fact, I hope they do! But I can almost guarantee they won’t happen the way you expect them to in your daydreams. Does that make them bad? Absolutely not! I, for one, have been on vacations that were ten times better than they were even in my most optimistic predictions. But the places I went were almost nothing like what I expected.

Now I want you to think about the future again. This time your mind’s eye has a dark circle around it as it looks upon bankruptcy, infertility, deaths, fire, burglary, losing jobs, being betrayed by friends. STOP LOOKING! Are you beginning to see the point? These things are possible, but not only are they highly unlikely, but your mind is filing in all sorts of sordid details that make them a thousand times worse than they would be in real life! Even if the worst case happens, it wouldn’t be as bad as your mind could make it. The mind is a powerful animal. The same way it can create vivid, life-like dreams, it can create one of these dark futures in your mind, and then you become convinced of its reality by living and reliving it in your head. The same way you get excited when you mentally play out a vacation, you produce anxiety by mentally torturing yourself. This is the foundation of worry, and it’s going to drive you crazier than you already are.

Here’s a secret about the future that your mind doesn’t want me to tell you: IT DOESN’T EXIST! Even if everything is written out in some cosmic book, as far as you’re concerned the present moment is all there is. The past is more real than the future because at least it leaves some physical trace of its passing. Yes, there are indicators of things that are going to happen in the future, and yes, some things can be predicted. But even though you can predict the sun will rise, you can’t predict exactly what it will look like. You can get excited about a magnificent golden display, or worry about a dreary overcast sky. But that’s your mind again, and the things you are really worried about aren’t as cut and dry as whether the sun will rise. Instead, you are worried about how it will make you feel, how it will affect you, and more importantly, how it will affect your PLANS. Your mind has decided what the “ideal” future looks like, and now it is doing its best to find all the ways it could fail. Your own expectations are setting the stage for your worst fears.

THE TAKE AWAY

Maybe you think I’m going to launch into a spiel on “don’t worry, be happy,” or “don’t worry about what you can’t control.” I’m not, because you know these things and you still worry, so clearly that’s not the answer. Instead, I only ask that you think back, maybe twenty years ago, maybe yesterday. Think of something you were REALLY worried about, maybe something you had to do or a situation you were in that you couldn’t see ending any way but badly. Got one? Good. Now don’t think about what happened. I don’t care if your worst fears were realized or if your enemies suddenly fell on their own swords and vanished. Instead, think about right here, right now, reading this post, and recognize that no matter what happened, or what happens next,

Look into this face and tell me you're still worried

Look into this face and tell me you’re still worried

Right now, you are okay.

Maybe a loved one is dying, or your job sucks, or you’re having relationship problems, and you are convinced that you’re not okay. I didn’t say EVERYTHING is okay. I said you are. You’re breathing, you have enough money to afford whatever you’re reading this on, and someone somewhere loves you. Don’t believe me? Well, eventually, whether a few hours or many years from now, you’ll look back on this time and think, “Yes, that happened. But I’m okay now.” And that’s the beauty of the future: the sun will rise, this too shall pass. And when you’ve lived your last day and past, present, and future blend into one, I hope you realize the truth that has been lurking there just out of sight all along: That no matter what storms are blowing around or inside you, no matter how little control you feel like you have, you are, and always have been, okay.

WHAT’S IT TO YOU?

Think of a time when you were worried sick about something. Did it end well or poorly, and what effect did worrying have on the outcome (if any)? How does remembering that time affect your perspective on whatever you’re worried about now?

Comments and discussion are always welcome! Life teaches us all lessons. Share what you’ve learned!

 
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Posted by on November 15, 2011 in Future, Perspective, Positivity, Tribulations, Worry

 

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If you can’t take the heat…

09 Nov

Baking

Ready or not, the holidays are coming, and no matter who you are, you will most likely experience an upswing in stress in November and December. Some of this is good stress: time with friends and family, anticipation of gifts, college football bowl season. But many of you will experience negative stress as well. Perhaps you love but don’t actually LIKE your family, you ridiculously procrastinate in your gift buying, or you don’t observe religious holidays and are just a bit irritated about the whole thing. But between the cheesy office parties, family gatherings, and general explosion of food everywhere, you probably won’t be able to entirely avoid the topic of

BAKING

For the purpose of this blog post, please ignore the nitpicking semantics differentiating baking vs. cooking vs. roasting vs. broiling. Set your mind on casseroles, or cakes, or pies, and notice the commonality: when they enter the oven, they are cold and runny. At best they are kind of awkward and gelatinous; at worst, full of raw eggs and ready to ruin your day if you eat them. But when they come out of the oven, delicious, smelling heavenly and tasting even better…drool, drool. Go find some pie (I know I’m going to!).

And welcome back again! I hope it was perfectly done: not too runny, and certainly not burnt! Because baking can be a bit tricky: to get that perfect pie, you have to make sure the temperature is right, or you’ll end up with a mess. After you’ve gathered up all of the ingredients and mixed everything just right, you have to send your creation into the oven, leave it in there for a while, and basically hope for the best. And let’s be honest: an oven is a terrible place to be. The hapless holiday dish is trapped, suffocating in the devilish red glow that burns it without and within. Essentially hell, right? But the result can be magnificent, if it’s not overdone.

Now remember a time (probably more than one) where life was baking you. Maybe a class or job was wearing you out, your house needed a major repair, money was tight, or a caustic relationship was straining you on multiple fronts. Chances are, you were pretty runny heading into these situations. For whatever reason, be it naiveté, lack of experience, conceit, or crippling fear, you just weren’t ready for the situation. You found yourself trapped, elements of your life heating up all around you. You were baking. Now recall that one of three things happened: you were either

  1. Burned—something terrible happened. You were fired, or divorced, or suffered a mental breakdown. For whatever reason, you were in the oven too long, the heat was too high, and you’re still putting out the flames.
  2. Undercooked—you got out of it. Congratulations! You escaped the fires of hell unscathed, but guess what? The happy holiday-makers are afraid to put you on their table and risk the health of their loved ones. You’re unproven, and have little to show for your stint in the heat.
  3. Done! You got into this situation for a reason, whether by fate or choice, and that was to come out better. And though you might be a little crispy on the edges, a little gooey in the center, you’ve solidified into what you were meant to be. You stayed in just long enough and kept the temperature just right. You’re ready for the feast.

THE TAKE–AWAY

Life is often an oven, and like any technology, ovens can be prone to going crazy and bursting their contents into flames. But for the most part, there are aspects of baking situations you can control, and how well you take the heat while balancing these other factors will determine the quality of the result. Perhaps you regretfully end a relationship that has singed both parties to prevent it from progressing to an unhappy marriage and ultimately divorce. Or you manage a successful work-life balance through a punishing deadline, or budget effectively through an economic downturn. Despite the heat of the situation, you handle it and come out better on the other side. Your products, of course, are those qualities that are solidified by your experience. Virtues such as patience, humility, perseverance, and compassion are just a few sweet results of life’s baking.

Perhaps the most important take-away from baking is that even if you are burned to a crisp, you can gather the ingredients together and try again. The good news is, unlike that smoldering casserole, life will give you another run in the oven. You just have to be willing to combine the ingredients, get in the pan, and go for it.

WHAT’S IT TO YOU?

What are some of your own oven experiences? Were you burned, undercooked, or baked just right? What “baked goods” did you end up with? Leave comments and discuss—we’ve all learned lessons from life, so share your wisdom here!

 
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Posted by on November 9, 2011 in Motivation, Patience, Tribulations

 

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