she sleeps
August 16, 2014
she sleeps
he lay there thinking
he is aware of the over thinking
and chooses to sit in the silence of the dark morning
breathing in, seeing the confusion, feeling the onslaught of emotions
she sleeps
he sits
breath and awareness separated by concept
candle flicker and nature dual
her breathing becomes the lesson
of letting go
the hips fall forward
allowing the channel to open
for a second he analyses
“Let go: it’s OK. Just, let go..”
Some would say he forgot his surroundings
and fell into another state.
Maybe found a higher plane…
Yet, he simply made peace with this time and place.
And as she dreamed, hoped and slept,
he sat.
quiet mind
October 30, 2013
Hanging in the shadows,
mind worn from playing ego’s games;
happy sad, good or bad …
the silent company you provided
was everything I needed.
Embodied life
October 18, 2013
Thinking about intimacy.
How a lack of intimacy with self cuts off the connection completely. We sometimes come to a place of feeling a need for someone else to enter our life; to bring us acceptance, acknowledgement, happiness and meaning. But it is intimacy with ourselves that we are craving/lacking.
It’s easy to see how we come upon this “grey” state. Life gets tough, we sense that we are feeling too much, so we begin to distance ourselves from our experience/body. Using all sorts of creative distractions, keeping our brain occupied and on the move, we can live a life cut off from the painful aspects of life. What a lot of us fail to notice is that we are cutting off experiencing the pleasurable aspects of life, fully, as well.
The following website leads to the introductory teachings presented by Dharma Ocean. For those seeking an embodied life; one that embraces all of life’s experiences, fully, I invite you to take a look.
Best wishes on your journeys
Dennis
Strangling life with ambition
January 18, 2013
As another Winter Dathun comes to end I can’t help but reflect on the last month. I did not attend this year due to the advice of my teacher, meditation instructor and psychiatrist, to take it easy on meditating for a while.
And it KILLED me not to go.
Thinking of 110 beings (approximately) sitting for nine hours a day; eating every meal Oryoki style; SERVING Oryoki !!! I love serving Oryoki. The long periods of silence and stillness and intense fire of reality in every ones eyes. And let us not forget to mention it is all set at the base of Ritro Gonpo; that magnificent mountain peak. Cradling us , nurturing us, pushing us to step out of our concepts and into the mad love of reality. My skin cried. But it was a new moment. A moment to relax and face the concepts that I was holding onto. Mainly, identifying as a meditator for security…sneaky ego (I see you).
Since August, I cut my meditation to only an hour a day and no bodywork. Just simply sat and allowed. No mahamudra (oh, believe me, I was tempted). I’ve found how dangerous ambition can be on the path. How meditating three to four hours a day can easily turn into quantity instead of quality. Fantasizing about what the next session would be like tomorrow. Always pushing; not much resting.
Limited my practice has allowed me to rest into my day. And thankfully, the full body awareness and awareness of space has started to return. Somehow, I had forgotten the three reminders of long ago;
Stay home (in the body)
Invite everything
Expect nothing
These are not reminders from a book but rather something I took away from listening to a Winter Dathun that my ex-wife had attended. She had received a set of cd’s that had all the talks of the Dathun. And it changed my life; again.
Last week, I increased the meditation for two hours a day. Not out of ambition, but I could feel a genuine nudge to step into it a little more. The effect has brought tears of gratitude to my eyes. For the first time, since August, I am not riddled with anxiety, depression and fear (mentally). I am able to rest in my body in a way that concepts fall away. And most importantly, my heart is starting to open again. Instead of generating love for the world, it is flowing through me again.
To all the beings that have helped, and continue to help, others open their hearts to themselves…thank you.
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