Are you awkward? Do you mess up situations that could turn into something AWESOME? Is it hard for you to engage in social activities without saying something completely, blatantly awkward?
Join the group, because some of us really go through it with our so-called condition..
I’ve been awkward as far as I can remember, ever since I joined the social life of “Boy meet’s girl”.. Yeah, I know, you’d think it’s something you grow out of at the age of 25, but naah, the awkwardness just keep’s getting better & better..
Imagine being a person who doesn’t really look like she could have the awkward syndrome, until she opens her mouth that is.
Let me share a little story, just so that you can get a little idea of the severity of my situation..
My first realization of my awkwardness was when I was 17 & I went to the states for a vacation, mind you this was my first summer without my parents (Most of ya’ll youngins probably consider that a late coming out, but that’s how it goes in my momma’s house) Anywhooo.. I went to visit my aunt & you can’t even imagine the excitement of going overseas for the first time, knowing that my aunt was a pretty cool adult. Going shopping with her was hell for me at first, since I was the definition of a tomboy & she was the queen of make-overs.. Her vision was AS GIRLY AS POSSIBLE & mine was baggy jeans, and sneaks..
After the make-over, I noticed I was being noticed a lot by the opposite gender in a way that I wasn’t quite used to. Embracing “The new me”, I had my first encounter with a really cute guy working at Starbucks in a Macy’s store. He had curly hair, looked like he was mixed, his accent and the beads around his neck gave me an indication that he had a slight surfer boy thing going on.
Here I was with a $100 bill in my hand trying to get 2 frappuccino’s for me & my aunt, when this guy keep’s smiling at me, I smile back as little as I can, with a mouth full of braces, not really understanding why he has this smile on his face.
The convo begins..
Him: “Are you from around here, I don’t feel like I’ve seen you before?”
Me: “No, I’m from Denmark, I’m only here for vacation”.
Him: “Wow, that’s far away! So how long are you staying?”
Me: (Getting extreemly uncomfortable & having a 100 thought’s running through my mind) “I’m staying for 2 more weeks.” I say very shortly while looking down.
Him: “So there might be a chance I’ll see you again, if you come around?”
Me: “Uhm, Yes, sure, maybe, I think so, if I come to Macy’s again…”
All of that comes out of my mouth while mumbling & looking down, at that exact moment, I become a total & utter mess! I pay as fast as I can & while he’s saying bye I walk away & go upstairs with two frapp’s in my hands..
My heart is racing, I feel like slapping myself & I just want to get out as fast as possible.
I manage to sit down & breathe. I think it’s over and I’m sure I won’t see this guy till I have to leave with my aunty.
You’d think so wouldn’t you?
While I’m sitting there driving myself crazy, my aunt ask’s me, “Where’s the rest of the money? I know two frapp’s don’t cost $100?”
I panic, because I KNOW EXACTLY what I did with the money.
Considering how fast I was getting away from the Starbucks counter, that could’ve been the only place I left the money.
So I start running downstairs, I keep running all the way to the counter, looking like a crazy person.
Here I am facing the cute guy again, while looking flustered, I try to catch my breath & mumble “the-money-have-you-seen-the rest?”
He laughs’s quietly & says: “I was waiting for you to come back & get it, I put it in a safe place for you.”
I felt so embarrassed & again my awkwardness took over me.
Instead of reacting like a normal person, I just quickly said thank you & walked as fast as I could over to my aunt without looking back.
I just wanted to become invisible, so I wouldn’t have to face this sweet dude, who probably was thinking “WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS FOREIGN GIRL?!”
The rest of the day I kept shaking my head at myself, thinking WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????
Now I know…
Because I was & still am AWKWARD!
Me, Myself & I 