I hate the ‘what if’ feelings…
I hate assuming…what may be said
I hate self-doubting
I hate always thinking of worst case scenario
I hate being misunderstood
I hate the misunderstanding
I hate falling for you…every time
I hate not knowing your thoughts
I hate the uncertainty
I hate me for hurting you
I hate falling in love
Because I hate being hurt
But still for you, I’ll always fall for you
Because…
❤
-Sol
I’m at the edge
Looking down into the abyss
I’m starting to feel it now, the pain and sorrow
I’m heart broken, it got shattered couple years ago
See, there was a girl I loved, more than my life itself
But I heard some things, I did not believe
Told myself she would not do that, she’s my pure half
How can the devil play me for a fool
But I believed when I pulled up and saw some other dude’s car, parked…
Shocked. Broken. Lost. Soul crashed…
What am I supposed to do…
Here I am
Here I am
At the edge of the cliff…
Darkness is all the surrounds
But, then I saw this beautiful person
Heart’s pure, eyes are so bright, and smile that shines the sky
But I was too scarred, too scared to believe again
Too broken to fall again
Too shattered to like again, much less love again
But she saw me, saw the hurt…
Picked up the pieces
Put the puzzle that is my heart back together
And I thought and said…are you the one
As I stared down into the dark abyss
She was the beacon of light…
Of hope, of love…that I may be alright as time goes…
And I smiled back
Stepped away from the edge
Her hands were the guide…
-Sol.
(Picture: taken and edited by me)
Memories…
All I know, all I have
Are these memories…
Of you, of me…of us, where I have been, where we have been
These memories, these thoughts
All I have left, all I know, all I know, all I know is this…
I love you
I miss you
I have fallen head over heels for you
I want you
I need you
Memories, are all that is left
Broken, lost soul, just walking through the darkness
Sidewalks are empty, not a soul out in this cold winter
But here I am, by my lonely, waiting alone
Say, say, say…can you say something
Let me hear you say something…
Silence is all that is left
Memories…
All I know, all I know…all I know is
Sadness
Sorrow
Hurt
Loss
I feel lost, I feel dead, inside
Why am I alive, if I don’t have you
I have nothing left, I’m alone
I have been led on, led by the collar
While I’m trying to call her
But someone else picked up
Tears in my eyes
Tears in the rain, so I’m not the only one crying…
Heartless, so now I feel they all feel the same…
Slowly, with each breath, I feel like dying
So, all I have are these memories
You.
Me.
Us.
Together.
Gone.
Now.
And.
Forever.
Gone.
All I know, all I have, all I’ll ever have…
Are these memories…
-Sol.
(Picture: taken and edited by me)
Life is short, and than you die…
So, live every second of it to its maximum…
Because when the green line goes flat, you know it is the end
And there is no reversing that…
When the end comes, don’t be afraid
As long as you lived to your best
And have all the people that matter to you…no matter what, you’ll always be together
One love
One life
One chance
Live, love, and laugh…with all your might…with all your loved ones
And you’ll never walk alone
🙂
Just when you think you’ve reached the top of the mountain…
There is more to climb
The fight doesn’t stop at the top, it just begins…
Always strive to be better,
Never surrender…
All I want to do is trade this life for something new
I hope you understand…
The hardest part of ending is starting again…
Without you…I’m nothing
Without you…I’m broken
All I want is you, all of you…
I don’t ever want to let you go
I will say it now…
I. Love. You. 4. Ever.
I need you, you are my air, my heart and soul…my everything and more
Without you, I’m just a sad song
A broken heart, lost at sea
I’m fading away…please turn around
Please look back, I promise I’ll give you the world…
Because without you I am just a half…
You make me whole.
I AM…
Broken. Sad. Lost. Useless. Empty. Alone. Heartbroken. Tired. Not talented. Not handsome enough. Not smart enough. Lonely. Angry. Pathetic. About to break down. Stupid. Betrayed. Anxious. Defeated. Not her first choice. Depressed. Not him. Not fun enough. Not smiling enough. Not perfect. Ready to leave. Confused. Smiling on the outside, while dying on the inside. Rejected. Not giving up, so ready to give up…even though I’ll be never good enough, I’ll still try…
So, please look back at me once, and I’ll give you the world.
You are the best part of me
With you standing next to me, I got nothing to fear
Without you I feel broke
Without you I feel like dying
I need you…
Without you, my heart is broken in half
You make me whole
So I hope we be together and stay with each other forever
I want to be with you until I fade away
My heart will still burn…
You and me…is all I need
My heart will still burn…
I wonder if I died…
Would tears come to your eyes?
Forgive me for my lies
Suicide is all that resides, within my mind
Sometimes I think, it’d be better if I was dead
Worthless and a waste of space
Ahhhhh…
I’m sick of this and that
All these lies and hate
Betrayals and backstabs
I’m so tired of it all
I can see it through your eyes
It’s dark and hollow, I’m full of sorrow
I feel so hollow…
So I keep thinking, suicide
Its do or die…I’m ready to go
So, I want to leave
I swear to God, death is calling me…I can hear it
I hope you understand
Before I go, I want to say I’m sorry…but this is something I got to do
No turning back now
So, dear God, what I’m hoping is you forgive me for this and all the other mistakes, and remember this face
And save me a place…
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