Writer: Amber Renee Location: Back porch Time: 8am Topic: ___________ Hello. Amber here, coming to you a MONTH+ into this whole weekly bloggin’ business. // & just what have I got to say for the accomplishment?? …Hmm, honestly, that I crawled here. Nails dug into the dirt, I shoveled my way here. (& it’s onlyContinueContinue reading “MONTH+ ,, a Progress Report”
Tag Archives: psychoanalysis
meditative poetry on existence, sin, & the nonexistence of both,,,
))) ) Sadness is illusion as happiness is illusion. (Does deep burning anguish bring illumination to the soul?) (??) The all is false, for the all is mind. It’s in this universe of illusion that we’re bound to perform. ////// Souls matter…. Tears splatter / against warm cheeks, our bodies, mere modes of transportation. StrungContinueContinue reading “meditative poetry on existence, sin, & the nonexistence of both,,,”
Book: “The Divided Self” // a recap
The Divided Self by RD Laing begins by clarifying his use of the term Ontology. Ontology in Laing’s use of the word is best described as a person’s empirical sense of “being.” If a person is an ontologically secure person, they know themselves as a solid entity in time & space, history, based off perceptionsContinueContinue reading “Book: “The Divided Self” // a recap”
Lately I’ve been feeling completely, & strongly my illness(es)
Letters to the World7/13/2020 Please excuse any self-pity but, here it comes….Can I withstand this life? I’m beat to the bone with fatigue stricken illness; achy & sad &…Can I withstand life? ROLL CALL!Bipolar. Depression. Psoriasis. Arthritis. IBS. Asthma. Lyme Disease. PTSD. GERD. Epilepsy. Anxiety. Okay looks like we’re all here. Good morning. (Or whateverContinueContinue reading “Lately I’ve been feeling completely, & strongly my illness(es)”
Hospital Notebook Poetry #1
I admitted myself to a psych hospital a few weeks ago. I stayed for 2 weeks, 2 days. I filled 2 notebooks with poetry. This is a poem from the 1st notebook. I hope you can’t relate. & if you can, I’m sorry. I’m sorry &,, keep up the fight. -Amber Renee
5 things about me, Amber Renee
Who’s ready to learn a bit about their favorite Philly burbs writer??? Wait, come back. I meant me…. I figured a list about me would be a good way to start my weekly bloggin’ category. You get to know who’s behind the keyboard. I get to write about myself. (Ego laughs manically.) Without further ado……ContinueContinue reading “5 things about me, Amber Renee”
27 ,, inpatient (birthday)
Letters to the World7/1/2020 At 27, I spent my birthday in the hospital. ///// It was funny to me, so I kept saying things like “today, ’93” when the med nurse would ask for my birthday. Or funnier things like “i’m okay” to the how are you feeling today question during morning meeting. “What’s yourContinueContinue reading “27 ,, inpatient (birthday)”
[ Awake in an Ambulance
Or, The Time I Had A Seizure Inpatient ] * * * I’mdoused with inward daydream,, soaked to the bone with infatuation / my own imagination / a misery / which follows me,, deluded to anxiety & spitting autonomous politeness speak. * * * I’ll never forget the feeling of thestrip search & body check.NoContinueContinue reading “[ Awake in an Ambulance”
2020
Letters to the World1/1/20 As I stare at my phone, listening to music in my car on this first day of the year, waiting to enter my assigned nanny case of the day…… I’m caught by this dear diary entry I found dated October of 2019. Does deep painful anguish bring light? I feel this,ContinueContinue reading “2020”
Forever 56 ,
Letters to the World 12/30/19 I, think / I think / my mom’s on a trip somewhere. Like she took a train, a bus, a flight & flew off somewhere far away with some one-way ticket out of this physical realm. (I’m struggling to conceptualize she won’t be coming back.) I think I think it’sContinueContinue reading “Forever 56 ,”
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