The Divided Self by RD Laing begins by clarifying his use of the term Ontology. Ontology in Laing’s use of the word is best described as a person’s empirical sense of “being.” If a person is an ontologically secure person, they know themselves as a solid entity in time & space, history, based off perceptionsContinueContinue reading “Book: “The Divided Self” // a recap”
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Feb 1: a spoken word (set to) music & its “essay” explanation
Hiya, & welcome to this little listen-in. Amber Renee here, pretty sick, very sleepy, but a lot eager to show you this lyrical piece of my soul. Both the poem & music were written a couple weeks ago in a haze of trance & mania; the piece itself is a bit of a mouthful. TheContinueContinue reading “Feb 1: a spoken word (set to) music & its “essay” explanation”
Sid/e e/ffects
October 1, 2018 Dear Diary, The side effects of these newly prescribed medications are beginning to wear on me. (*) Hives were visual. “The doctor wants you to stop the medication.” Said the voice over the phone. 4 weeks of level building for nothing. // But mood is imaginary. (A thing to think when grippedContinueContinue reading “Sid/e e/ffects”
//a null-god, explained
I pledge my allegiance to the absurd, of the primeval mechanics of phenomenon. & to the lawless, for which we must be; one soul in transduality, multi-reality’d, with experience & autonomy for all. -Amber Renee I am a proud & free-from-worry atheist. I smile at the word. Why? The pride I have found is unbound.ContinueContinue reading “//a null-god, explained”
identity pride //
I’ve never celebrated a pride month. See, I’ve always identified with my assigned birth gender, a she/her woman & I’ve always assumed I was straight. Why not? I have no desire to touch or even see a boob. I have no place in pride spaces, I’d thought. (& pretty much still do. Yikes.) Background:: IContinueContinue reading “identity pride //”
, ,i’m in it ,
So it’s 9a on a show day. & I’m due to perform at the Tattooed Mom tonight in Philly. (EXTRA EXTRA STEP RIGHT UP: | DOORS 7PM | FREE POETRY EVENT,, hint: shameless self promotion.) But I’m weary from standing in this grey & electric hail storm called life, immobile & slow while just nextContinueContinue reading “, ,i’m in it ,”
through the mind,, ,
I feel like a lonely island, we’re all lonely islands and nobody knows. //We see each other’s smoke signals & call it humanity. //We see each other’s smoke signals & claim to know the archaic souls blowing the embers up to animation, but we can only guess through the fire’s dance. I believe we areContinueContinue reading “through the mind,, ,”
handwritten notes will never go out of style, ,,
PERSONAL NOTES TAKEN WHILE READING “THE DIVIDED SELF” BY R.D. LAING ~ click individual pictures below to read highlights * to be perused at leisure & pondered on * * Clarification write up to follow * * as soon as I get it together *
thoughts on THOUGHTS, pt.s 1-3
THOUGHTS ON THIS MOST RECENT EPISODE is a collection of poems written by myself that deal with the incredible feelings I was subject to during an episode lasted at least 4 months. During this time I was near-crisis & agitated, miserable, depressed & hyperactive, isolating & quiet, creative, all-knowing, angry & The Void Herself allContinueContinue reading “thoughts on THOUGHTS, pt.s 1-3”
oh the horror,, , //a sleep paralysis story
Last night I fell asleep with no problems. Ease; letting go the intense mind crunch & instead surrendering into that blissful non-thoughts phantastic we all have at the edge of asleep. Hypnagogic consciousness, it’s called, the falling asleep mind still churning. But that’s not where our story begins. //// Episodes of sleep paralysis are made upContinueContinue reading “oh the horror,, , //a sleep paralysis story”
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