This is, I think, a self-improvement blog.

Here, you’ll find ideas and “bytes” to become a better you, while I try to become a better me. I cover topics ranging from:

1. Binge eating, eating disorders, diet
2. Anxiety, depression
3. Procrastination, productivity
4. Healthier thinking
5. And whatever else I want, because I hate commitments.

As a 25 year old, I’ve been struggling with mental health issues for the majority of my life.  From about the time the internet became a household thing, I spent a lot of time typing frantically, looking for answers to my problems from various cyber communities. I searched for ways of improving myself.

These sites rarely helped. Often, I would feel worse about myself.

Their approach, I found, was similar to hardcore trainers at my local lifting gym.

 “C’MON YOU WIMPY BITCH, WORK HARDER.”

Of course, most self-help blogs aren’t so crass. It may sound something more like:

YOU JUST HAVE TO WANT IT MORE.

JUST DO THE WORK.

Or, more recently, it looks kinda like this:

The problem with this is that I think most of us already talk to ourselves like this all of the time. I’m constantly YELLING at myself in an attempt to motivate, but it rarely sparks anything but more inaction.

If someone failed to lift a heavy weight via the yell-louder method, adding more weight and more invective would most likely prove pointless.

Why then do we try to motivate ourselves by beating ourselves up more when it gets us nowhere?

And of course, there’s the other side of the coin.

JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

THINK POSITIVELY.

While this approach may be useful for some, I find it of absolutely no use. The problem is not that I don’t or cannot believe in myself; it’s that I do not know HOW or why to believe in myself, nor do I know how to think positively consistently.

Also, sometimes you have to get shit done when you’re feeling negative, or insecure. Life doesn’t always give you a green-light. How do we push through it?

To make an awfully long story short, this is the blog I wish I would have stumbled upon when I was desperate at 3am to cope with my binge eating, or to find some peace within myself.

This blog is MY APPROACH.  My collection of bites and pieces, a patchwork of ideas and concepts that have worked for me along the way.

My approach to self-help dovetails art, humor, brain science, spirituality and risk.

I believe in making mistakes, in do-overs and screw-ups, in baby steps and “bytes.” The majority of us do not chance upon epiphanies that mysteriously make sense of our lives.

We must create this magic for ourselves.

This is what I’ve learned so far.